did you miss me?

It's been a few days since I have had the time or the mental energy to blog. I wonder if any of you missed me, or if that's just me being narcissistic. These first few days and also the last few days of school are always the busiest for me. I am much farther along this year than usual. I finished setting up for meet the teacher night this afternoon, so I have most of the day available tomorrow to work on lesson plans. I am hoping to plan several weeks in advance to help me better manage my classroom and my time. Some of you are laughing and spewing your drinks out of your noses because you know me better than that. I also say every year that this is the year that teaching will not consume my life. Then reality sets in.

I am not a morning person. Getting up this week at 5:45 has been miserable, and next week when I have to get up at 5:00 it will be much worse. I keep hoping that God will turn me into a morning person, but I consistently get my heaviest and best sleep between 4 and 6, so that 5 a.m. wake-up time keeps me eternally exhausted. I am hoping that exercising will help with that to some degree.

This week is always a little rough for me emotionally. (Being in a building full of estrogen probably doesn't help - as our bodies all attempt to regulate with each other the pms is crazy in the building) I have to face reality that I did not win the lottery (maybe because I don't play), and I have to return to teaching. Although I am a fairly good teacher, I am not passionate about my profession and keep hoping that God will allow me someday to have a career that I am passionate about. However, I like my job okay. I absolutely love the women that I work with. They are amazing people, and it is rewarding to be able to change children's lives and minister to families. I see God's hand all over where I am at in my life, and I will do my best to be content to serve Him in the place where He has placed me.

Please pray for me tomorrow as I meet my students and their parents. Pray that God would help me to see those children and parents with His eyes. Pray that God would use me this year and that I would teach in such a way that I bring Him honor and glory.